drink up, baby, down

despite the long and deep deep thinking i should be doing, i decided to simply go with the flow for now. the only thing that makes it hard for me is how i could let myself to be the co-driver instead of taking the full control authority. you know.. just because i should be having no more interest in the idea of relying on someone else.

so it was a rather challenging week for me. thankfully, the lecturer took a decision to postpone the progress presentation to upcoming week. it at least gave me time to breathe the air a little. i swear i would talk all gibberish had it went as formerly scheduled.

my thoughts are still unconsciously wandering to some places i know it shouldn't be and the mood is still on the bumpy stage. which means, i could manage to get through few days smoothly but then i would need one whole day to hide under the blanket, facing the pillow and turn it to be extremely wet.

oh, one more thing. i keep having dreams at night. unpleasant ones. and it all had one thing in common, of course.