Thursday, February 25, 2010
it's too early
i decided to go to bed early, so i went to hit my pillows at 00:00, in a peaceful hope that i would be able to wake up early at 6:00 and have some jogs at the jogging track.
not at all failed, though. but i guess i was praying too hard on waking up early, so that was exactly what i got. i woke up. extremely early. at around 2:30. BY SOME FRIGGIN' TERRIFYING NIGHTMARE.
it involved an overaged female running her fingers on my breasts, anyway. AN ABSOLUTE HORROR.
so, here i am now, typing randomly while the television is still singing something that sounds like.. 'liiii~ve like we're dying'. oh, he was another american idol, i assume.
aanyway,
had a ym conversation with @echaboy when i had successfully calmed myself down from the nightmare. the conversation leaded to a late phonecall with DA (which costed me less than 500 idr, God bless identical cellphone service for couples!). he was waiting for his sleepiness to hit while watching the football match on tv. so, i told him my nightmare, he got like: 'ewh, okay, that was scary, but just ignore it and go back to bed.'
and i still haven't felt sleepy at all.
okay then, let's go back to the beginning of yesterday.
i decided to skip the auditorium session for my TOM class because i was just sure i wouldn't be able to be there on time. oh anyway, this week's the second week i went back to my older choice of transportation: the public transportation. i'm telling you, my campus doesn't serve its students so nicely when it comes to adequate parking lots. and the younger kids are so immature they think those available parking lots were theirs at the first time so they're free to do the monopoly. such selfish spoiled brats.
okay, anyway..
so i went to campus on angkot with my ipod on. went to the tutorial class, got the homework and 3 numbers of class assignments done. apparently those were what it took for me to starve. so, i ran to the usual canteen to grab some meals for lunch where i met dito, galih, and hendi and they brought me to the place where they (note: only them) would get free lunches. well, apart from the fact that at days i rarely had spent any time with them except in classes, they weren't bad for lunch-mates. i mean, they're not bad at all.
so i was with them until around 14:00 when i received a txt message from DA, telling me that he was already there to pick me up. so i ran to the gate and went to accompany him to have his lunch.
okay, i just yawned, i guess i'm going to hit the pillows in some time around now.
and there goes my plan to jog. God, i hate having a cancelled sport session when i was rrrrrreally willing to do it. i hate you, nightmare, i truly do.
it involved an overaged female running her fingers on my breasts, anyway. AN ABSOLUTE HORROR.
so, here i am now, typing randomly while the television is still singing something that sounds like.. 'liiii~ve like we're dying'. oh, he was another american idol, i assume.
aanyway,
had a ym conversation with @echaboy when i had successfully calmed myself down from the nightmare. the conversation leaded to a late phonecall with DA (which costed me less than 500 idr, God bless identical cellphone service for couples!). he was waiting for his sleepiness to hit while watching the football match on tv. so, i told him my nightmare, he got like: 'ewh, okay, that was scary, but just ignore it and go back to bed.'
and i still haven't felt sleepy at all.
okay then, let's go back to the beginning of yesterday.
i decided to skip the auditorium session for my TOM class because i was just sure i wouldn't be able to be there on time. oh anyway, this week's the second week i went back to my older choice of transportation: the public transportation. i'm telling you, my campus doesn't serve its students so nicely when it comes to adequate parking lots. and the younger kids are so immature they think those available parking lots were theirs at the first time so they're free to do the monopoly. such selfish spoiled brats.
okay, anyway..
so i went to campus on angkot with my ipod on. went to the tutorial class, got the homework and 3 numbers of class assignments done. apparently those were what it took for me to starve. so, i ran to the usual canteen to grab some meals for lunch where i met dito, galih, and hendi and they brought me to the place where they (note: only them) would get free lunches. well, apart from the fact that at days i rarely had spent any time with them except in classes, they weren't bad for lunch-mates. i mean, they're not bad at all.
so i was with them until around 14:00 when i received a txt message from DA, telling me that he was already there to pick me up. so i ran to the gate and went to accompany him to have his lunch.
okay, i just yawned, i guess i'm going to hit the pillows in some time around now.
and there goes my plan to jog. God, i hate having a cancelled sport session when i was rrrrrreally willing to do it. i hate you, nightmare, i truly do.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
it takes ... to unleash it
it is never possible for anyone to completely finish reading a book in an instance. there's always the procedure, to uncover it, pull its own cover up, reading letter-by-letter, word-by-word, page-to-page...
when we felt tired of reading or our ways to visualize the words into our imagination failed us, sometimes we chose to take a rest. decided to stay imagining its content down to the latest word we caught. at that point, we might not feel that knowing the entire content or how it would end was necessary.
...
okay, that was mostly me.
i, most of the times, thought that for some readings i've had, had my own favorite endings. sometimes it really meant i ended reading and neglected the rest of the book left unknown, the other times, it was just 'for me, this book ended at (let's say..) the middle of chapter 19.' but i kept reading until the book actually ended, anyway.
yes, i did make my own endings for stories that weren't even mine. i did. because i believed some things were better left unknown.
and now,
i've had my price for me to pay.
when we felt tired of reading or our ways to visualize the words into our imagination failed us, sometimes we chose to take a rest. decided to stay imagining its content down to the latest word we caught. at that point, we might not feel that knowing the entire content or how it would end was necessary.
...
okay, that was mostly me.
i, most of the times, thought that for some readings i've had, had my own favorite endings. sometimes it really meant i ended reading and neglected the rest of the book left unknown, the other times, it was just 'for me, this book ended at (let's say..) the middle of chapter 19.' but i kept reading until the book actually ended, anyway.
yes, i did make my own endings for stories that weren't even mine. i did. because i believed some things were better left unknown.
and now,
i've had my price for me to pay.
Monday, February 22, 2010
"where are you going?"
i can't concentrate or pay more focus to what's ahead of me, either. all i did was staring at what i had seen, finding clues, asking for helps, and it made me feel even more terrible. i dropped a tear everytime i remembered them, everytime i saw them.
fragile, i just want to hold and tell you how much i want to make you feel safe.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry. and i wish i could tell them to you. straight, to the point. and if it must end with us crying, so be it.
i'm sorry, i really do.
fragile, i just want to hold and tell you how much i want to make you feel safe.
i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry. and i wish i could tell them to you. straight, to the point. and if it must end with us crying, so be it.
i'm sorry, i really do.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Monday, February 08, 2010
caught in bad romance
i have almost always been proud of how i'd never been able to put things i really like in words. things like the smell of a car that had been abandoned under the bright hot shining sun for hours, the sound of someone walking towards my door in times no one would normally do, the sense of other people's presence, the joy of laughs--even when they weren't mine.
i have never been able to put into words the description of my favorite type of the opposite sex. it has never been as simple as: dark/light skin tone, skinny/muscular figure, hard-definite/soft-chubby jaw line.
i adore any special vibes that's within the possession of ordinary people. i adore thoughts i have never thought of. i adore humbleness of an unexposed brilliance. i--like most females do--adore unrevealed secrets that would only be revealed to me, and therefore, will become mine and mine only.
i adore people who influence me.
and even more adoring one person who could influence me to adore more people who, in my tiny sights, looked similar to that person--outside and, God forbids, inside.
i have never been able to put into words the description of my favorite type of the opposite sex. it has never been as simple as: dark/light skin tone, skinny/muscular figure, hard-definite/soft-chubby jaw line.
i adore any special vibes that's within the possession of ordinary people. i adore thoughts i have never thought of. i adore humbleness of an unexposed brilliance. i--like most females do--adore unrevealed secrets that would only be revealed to me, and therefore, will become mine and mine only.
i adore people who influence me.
and even more adoring one person who could influence me to adore more people who, in my tiny sights, looked similar to that person--outside and, God forbids, inside.
'cause when i leave for the night i ain't coming back
i guess i have been a little abandoning this, getting too busy with Momento. hahah.
so..
as usual, i went to campus for two classes on monday, which happens to be today. yeah, i went to campus today, having Hak Kekayaan Intelektual Bidang Desain class on 11am, followed by Manajemen Operasi dan Teknologi on 1:30pm. paid least attention on the last couple hours of the last class but luckily managed to not fallen asleep. 'yay' for that, i guess.
and i spent the last weekend at jakarta, primarily because i had a monthly appointment with my orthodontist. it feels much more obligatory for now, considering i'd once being so reckless about these braces that i forgot to pay any monthly visits for more that two years. what a loyal patient. poor teeth, i hope they wouldn't ask for revenge later.
and as usual, jakarta brought me to another outing with my brother and his girlfriend, who happens to be one of my best friends in jhs.
so..
as usual, i went to campus for two classes on monday, which happens to be today. yeah, i went to campus today, having Hak Kekayaan Intelektual Bidang Desain class on 11am, followed by Manajemen Operasi dan Teknologi on 1:30pm. paid least attention on the last couple hours of the last class but luckily managed to not fallen asleep. 'yay' for that, i guess.
and i spent the last weekend at jakarta, primarily because i had a monthly appointment with my orthodontist. it feels much more obligatory for now, considering i'd once being so reckless about these braces that i forgot to pay any monthly visits for more that two years. what a loyal patient. poor teeth, i hope they wouldn't ask for revenge later.
and as usual, jakarta brought me to another outing with my brother and his girlfriend, who happens to be one of my best friends in jhs.
and looky look what she got me from her trip to bangkok!
and this evening, i literally ripped my wallet off for a stack of new dvds to accompany me tonight. been meaning to stay awake until the sun rises tomorrow but then this txt somehow dragged me down, back to earth:
"Kt pak martinus ada kul TA besok jam 9.30, kasi tau yg laen y, thx"
Monday, February 01, 2010
nothing's gonna bring you down
am officially waking up late for my 9am class. hahaha. uh, i'm so sorry.
so, i was home all night last night, non-stop-ly staring on bright displays with my glasses on, which resulted in:
• SILBERMOND (thankies, @famminarism!)
• re-activated facebook account
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• TAP TAP REVENGE: LADY GAGA EDITION
i need my sanity back, soon. no, seriously, been having too much fun while avoiding the fact that the new semester had begun. the new semester, which should better be my last semester, here. oh fuck.
so, i was home all night last night, non-stop-ly staring on bright displays with my glasses on, which resulted in:
• SILBERMOND (thankies, @famminarism!)
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• TAP TAP REVENGE: LADY GAGA EDITION
i need my sanity back, soon. no, seriously, been having too much fun while avoiding the fact that the new semester had begun. the new semester, which should better be my last semester, here. oh fuck.
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