wrong thing, worst timing

the least i want to know is the fact that history repeats. the least i know is probably the person who lives hiding behind the mask i had always seen.
what kind of a person i am, if i keep feeling okay to: staying outside, not taking any steps to know better, not realizing the fact that i have always been here -- alone, not knowing where exactly you stood, where you were heading to, what you were thinking of?
if there is no way for me to step closer, know better, understand what's within, then what's the point?
i know being emotional is my best potential, i know how my over-sensitivity often brought me to some points i would rather really not discuss anymore. but that, whatever that means to anyone, is an inseparable part of me which built me to be the person that i am.
right, i've got so much to do now.

errrrrrrrrrrr......

okay, i am so fckn jobless, all i did for the last eleven hours was waiting for the confirmation hour to go back to bandung from DA. his situation was pretty fcked up, so i had to act as an understanding girlfriend, while actually i am so nervous of my tomorrow's 8am class because it alwas had quizzes first thing in the morning.

i. am. not. cool.
not about this, no.

i need everything there is to calm me down. like, now. like, a-ny-thing.

this would probably not be my last post of today... awrgh.

what you're looking for has been here the whole time

i am in need of:

• cardholder album
• either: a hardcase / better laptop sleeve / courier type of laptop bag (wouldn't say "no" to having them all, of course)
• better sanity in hitting malls and/or rows of shopping stores, because i keep buying things i don't really need

fuck. fuck. fuck.

see-sea-world

well, i know it was never easy, but thanks for staying :-)

steady feet, don't fail me now

well, i actually haven't been so sure about this. i mean, everything on my previous webjournal was not wrong, like, at all. but i couldn't push the thoughts of having a new place to write out of my head, probably because having been telling stories in the same place for almost 5 years... it was just rather too much. for whatever it means.

i still prefer relating whatever it is i am doing now with the noun diary than blog, anyway.
let's see what will happen next. :-)

as for the nowadays...
i'm still in jakarta and amazingly found myself getting attached more and more everyday to this city.

never. happened. before.

there is actually something with the overheated climate i cannot bear, living inside this two-times-larger bedroom for hours... well, okay, i gotta admit it was all about the 3.5g internet connection that works unbelievably well here. that's how shallow i am.

anyway, i purchased sherina's "gemini" yesterday while scooting away from the party of jhs besties reunion. and i truly fell for it. probably the best singing-seed indonesia could ever afford to have today. no, don't even dare to mention derby romero here, no matter how the two related in the past. that happened long before he got lost between the raging hormone.

there are still many things i gotta do with this new blog, so i gotta go now. and oh, it's my 11th monthversarry today, fyi. :-)