truth being told

i really wish, at one point, i could say anything i wanted and be heard as how i intended to be. not just saying things i assume you wanted to hear nor to be heard as something you wanted me to sound like.

just so you would start saying things genuinely, not just because you wanted to be seen as something else that was not you.

she's gone to the other side

it feels truly TRULY relieving for me having passed this last week according to how i have planned it. because a run along...

• TRF's stage without @pepibayik on saturday
• midtest with 400++ pages to study on monday
• internship report deadline on wednesday, and
• an obligatory meeting for my final assignment today

was obviously more than enough for a week.

i am proud of myself and now i need a peaceful weekend full of DA and my girls and my buddies.

...
before having to start studying for another exam next monday.

you know that i'll be there for you in the end

is it true that trust is a fragile thing?

if it is, how fragile is it exactly?

if it depends, what does it exactly depend on?

what about saying that our trust had reached its limit to another person whose trust is in some more fragile level of fragility?

what about deciding to quit trusting someone who's been ignoring his/her trust's fragility in dealing with us all along?

what about that person? what about those people?

what about us?

which one comes first?

be strong, be wrong

after one thing leaded to another and the long never-ending chain of disappointment, mistrust, and misleading facts.

the thing is, when you decided something and you put up with it even when you cried yourself dry, you started realizing that that decision might be the best. for you, at least. because talking about 'everyone' is just.. you know, 'i-just-don't-wanna-sound-so-selfish'-y.