you are strong enough to bear this

it is merely a common way of living nowadays: 'life on-the-go'. people are moving way beyond their capabilities in relatively irrationally-short length of time. that's why there are numerous tools to travel, never-ending improvement in communication technology, and so forth.

but really, none of them matters if we could manage to stay near. be it living in a cage, placed in nowhere land or unreachable top of a mountain, no other beings, no other living, no mcdonalds or even their delivery services, doesn't matter.

but who are we to decide?

tell me a story

old notes are..

dated: may 4, 2010
"by exposing how much alike you are with those shrimps that made my face swollen, it makes falling in love with you much harder to survive. tormenting, challenging, much likely turning myself to be intolerant, but yet so adorable it makes me drooling, unstoppably."

dated: may 8, 2010
"do people know what a broken trust is? it's a feeling far worse than having your heart broken, a feeling far worse than knowing you're left alone, a feeling far worse than not knowing anything, a feeling of betrayal, lost of hope..."

dated: may 9, 2010
"can you really--really--hit the 'snooze' button to get some rest? can you really postpone anything from happening just because you are unaware of it coming? just because.. you know, you hope it hasn't been the time yet.

so you need some rest, some time-out, something to keep your mind at ease. so you're tired, so what?"

dated: july 12, 2010
"there are numerous ways to describe a self, my favorite one is by stating anything it's not.

not the kind of person you'll choose to hang out with at times when you are down.
not the kind of person who will tell a lie to make you feel good.
not the kind of person who wants to look cool all the time.
not the kind of person who cheats and keeps it shut.
not the kind of person you'll trust."

fun to remind us of the old thoughts.

sing me a love song, drop me a line

mother's here. I am practically getting back to the way I lived few years ago: me and her. only this time, it wouldn't last that long.
oh, isn't it august already? pheew, how could this year leap through itself so quickly? well, this might be a little too early to decide, but apart from one HUGE achievement I have made this year, I won't be writing any posts to conclude 2010. well, if anyone had ever been jobless enough to follow where I had been, they might have realized how I had always welcomed a new year not by typing a 'resolution post' (because I kept failing myself at keeping promises) but by writing a conclusion post instead. that thing I mention earlier would be the answer to anyone's loss of my '2010-concluded' post---of course, if there's any. :-P
and yes, I should've known how this lifestyle could contradictorily affecting me financially and.. well corpulencily.

please do waste my time

I bought my first pack of monthly soft-lense today. tee-hee. :-D

and, umm.. let’s see. umm, seriously, there is nothing really interesting in my daily life nowadays. well, not that it’s not interesting for me to live in, anyway. there is absolutely nothing in this whole world that could defeat the joy of waking up late without any guilt following. I could spend as many time as I wanted to sit quietly on the toilet, scroll through my twitter ‘home’ from bottom to the top, get out, and then hit the bed once again, and then after half an hour or so, going back to the toilet seat again only to sit down and actually do nothing. seriously, if you force me to define heaven, that’s how I’ll go.

yeah, there is nothing really interesting in that in the eyes of anyone who’s watching me (if there’s any). well, at least I could tell how my parents were not 'that' excited for me. :-P

oh, did I forget to mention what happened a couple days ago while I was trimming my nails? it cracked. they did. MY NAILS actually cracked. I didn’t know it was so damaged until it cracked. and yes, of course it cracked my heart, too, so I’m currently in off-from-being-polished therapy for now. which makes my face turned indescribably frowning/envying/angry everytime I passed through anyone with shiny well-polished nails. GRR.

anyway, does anybody know why my phone keeps telling me one sentence over and over again until I am very much feeling sick enough to care about: SIM Card Error … SOS? and would anybody please kindly explain what I would have to do now that it keeps the annoying attitude? looking forward to get my answer, thanks.

hammering in my head

okay, here’s the thing:

there are points when everything you do seems a lot like reality, correct, and undeniably beautiful, eventhough at more than few times it does make you cry. or at least whine.

or vice versa.

some things feel hard, wrong, and you feel yourself getting lost while you’ve actually forgotten how those things could make you smile and lighten your steps.

this, and the ability to see ‘this’ as this… is rare. that’s why few people are grateful enough to thank God for their current living.

july, oh

so, most of the things that i thought could be the highlights of 2010 had happened. all in july. well, there were one or two unexpected highlights that happened sometime earlier but those were not the things i would gladly speak about now.

a couple of days after my graduation, my body gave up under exhaustion. i was consciously willing to spend the day resting around at home, doing nothing, and get a full-body rejuvenating massage, and so i did. it went as well as expected and I got up from bed the next morning feeling like being re-born. only now, for the sake of what the massage therapist told me repeatedly every ten seconds during the session, i am obligated to consume more water, as in the drinking water. she said my body was so lacking of water that it was as dry as a savanna. so now, aside from making the most out of my absolute joblessness, i have a thing to accomplish everyday: drink 8 glasses of water. it’s not at all easy, at least not for me.

and i think my vision is getting further away from 20/20. :-( gonna be needing a soft-lense, most probably, but i need to see a doctor first.

moving

yes baby, i have been graduated whooooosh~

and for little updates on these r fake:

PROFILE FOR LA LIGHTS INDIEFEST 2010

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