i don't want to disappear. i want to be near.

congratulations, DA's brother! :-)

and thankieeesss, @pepibayik and dydy!

caught in bad romance

i have almost always been proud of how i'd never been able to put things i really like in words. things like the smell of a car that had been abandoned under the bright hot shining sun for hours, the sound of someone walking towards my door in times no one would normally do, the sense of other people's presence, the joy of laughs--even when they weren't mine.

i have never been able to put into words the description of my favorite type of the opposite sex. it has never been as simple as: dark/light skin tone, skinny/muscular figure, hard-definite/soft-chubby jaw line.

i adore any special vibes that's within the possession of ordinary people. i adore thoughts i have never thought of. i adore humbleness of an unexposed brilliance. i--like most females do--adore unrevealed secrets that would only be revealed to me, and therefore, will become mine and mine only.

i adore people who influence me.

and even more adoring one person who could influence me to adore more people who, in my tiny sights, looked similar to that person--outside and, God forbids, inside.

'cause when i leave for the night i ain't coming back

i guess i have been a little abandoning this, getting too busy with Momento. hahah.

so..
as usual, i went to campus for two classes on monday, which happens to be today. yeah, i went to campus today, having Hak Kekayaan Intelektual Bidang Desain class on 11am, followed by Manajemen Operasi dan Teknologi on 1:30pm. paid least attention on the last couple hours of the last class but luckily managed to not fallen asleep. 'yay' for that, i guess.

and i spent the last weekend at jakarta, primarily because i had a monthly appointment with my orthodontist. it feels much more obligatory for now, considering i'd once being so reckless about these braces that i forgot to pay any monthly visits for more that two years. what a loyal patient. poor teeth, i hope they wouldn't ask for revenge later.

and as usual, jakarta brought me to another outing with my brother and his girlfriend, who happens to be one of my best friends in jhs.

and looky look what she got me from her trip to bangkok!

and this evening, i literally ripped my wallet off for a stack of new dvds to accompany me tonight. been meaning to stay awake until the sun rises tomorrow but then this txt somehow dragged me down, back to earth:

"Kt pak martinus ada kul TA besok jam 9.30, kasi tau yg laen y, thx"

nothing's gonna bring you down

am officially waking up late for my 9am class. hahaha. uh, i'm so sorry.

so, i was home all night last night, non-stop-ly staring on bright displays with my glasses on, which resulted in:

• SILBERMOND (thankies, @famminarism!)

• re-activated facebook account


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• TAP TAP REVENGE: LADY GAGA EDITION

i need my sanity back, soon. no, seriously, been having too much fun while avoiding the fact that the new semester had begun. the new semester, which should better be my last semester, here. oh fuck.

-to death

i've already eaten up my dvds (still not all that is unwatched), stuffing my phone with things over-the-air, taken shower, sunk in my sofabed, and spent the whole day craving for donuts. and now i'm kinda bored. so, i decided to blog.

oh my, i'm so bored and i really really really want something glazed with sugar icing.

haaaaaaaaaaaargh.

once was tagged

Using only song names from ONE BAND or ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions.. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)"

Pick your Artist: GARBAGE

Are you a female: Stupid Girl

Describe yourself: Untouchable

How do you feel: Can't Cry These Tears

Describe where you currently live: The World is Not Enough

If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Parade

Your favorite form of transportation: Cup of Coffee

Your best friend is: Androgyny

You and your best friends are: Cherry Lips

What's the weather like: So Like A Rose

Favorite time of day: When I Grow Up

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: Why Do You Love Me

What is life to you: The Trick is to Keep Breathing

Your relationship: Medication

Your fear: Hammering in My Head

What is the best advice you have to give: Push It

How I would like to die: You Look So Fine

My soul's present condition: Special

My Motto: Temptation Waits

hi all, i am back

no, i am not, and not at all. and i don't even want to be.

so here, let me put it this way:
the only thing i don't want to be related to is anything vulnerable. like glass, water, or paper. while you're one who is so proud of being so. i am not.

the only thing i always try to keep doing was letting go and never look back. while you're one who is so proud of doing the opposite. i am not.

one of the most useless things i consider as a waste of energy and effort is comparing one self to the other. while you think you're so good at being compared to that nothing could ever beat you down. i do not.

what's the point of being seen as someone vulnerable while constantly keeping up the competition between you and the other, seeking the opportunity to win by gaining sympathy? it's not even a competition if it's not being held objectively.

what's the point of comparing two absolutely-different things that happen in two absolutely-different stages of time?

what's the point of not letting go, suffering yourself, and be proud about it?

if you prefer to speak metaphors instead of blatant truth, let me translate this to you in my most favorite metaphorical statement:

YOU'RE A FREAK